Well, how is everyone out there? I have been through a mess this week. But I handled it, and came through OK- very much changed, but OK. My morning walks are up to one full hour now - down the block into the neighborhood park and then into the trails for a religious experience in the Church of the redbird, the Blue Jay and the dragonflies. I pray and pray and pray for the safety of Brad in Baghdad, Trent, and David in Afghanistan. If I am lucky, I run into very enthusiastic joggers, bikers and hikers on the same trails and we get to grin at each other in the early morning sunrise time. To think I used to sleep sleep sleep my mornings away and this was what I was missing. I am so so so sore, yes. But I am putting that SSD backpay to good use with weekly massage, chiropractic adjustments and other physical therapy. I now attend 2 support groups- one 2-3 times a month and the other once a week.
**I just got into my jeans this morning** OMG does that make an old lady feel like a giddy gal! YIPPEE! I have lost a total of 30 pds since the start of my irTMS treatment June 1st. And now I have gotten some stamina and endurance and muscle going (love the way my arms are looking), the weight loss seems faster. My face and my stomach are still very swollen and large but I am still noticing small changes there as well. My self-esteem will be helped when I can like my face again! My cheeks are just so swollen- I forgot that all the times I was on steroids could have contributed to that change.
The Green Zone in Baghdad was attacked by rocket fire last night (another Tuesday attack) and Brad said it landed behind the U.S. Embassy. We guess since there are no casualties (thank GOD), there is no news of the event either. My sleep is disturbed by the stress of these attacks and the imminent danger that this dear friend is under, but boy is my prayer life taking off! I know I am lucky to have connected with another dear soul going through this journey and I need and must just take it day by day and be ever so grateful that he and the other troops there are unscathed.
My daily life is energetic, positive, and I am receiving many blessings on a daily basis.
I remain enthusiastic, I LOVE MY PASSION!, and I am so motivated to grab back all the life I missed for the last 10 years or so.
Cheers!
Marian Paul
p.s. Notice I updated my profile to show my real name. The reluctance to share my experience with others I know is fading and the paranoia of stigma or judgement is just melted away. God bless y'all.
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