Having Less Doesn’t Mean You Are Less

Don’t confuse having less with being less, having more with being more, or what you have with who you are.

~ Beliefnet.com

Today I awoke sort of sobered. My fibro flared with summer storms and I had to figure out how to regulate my pain, mood, actions, etc. So even though I suffered much pain, it has been such a successful week as I figured out another nuance of staying in the normal range. I am so proud of myself and so grateful to my friends, my therapist and my doctors for how they listen to me, and support me while I am so motivated to work all this out with my new energy.

Despite being in pain and tired, I went to a high school football game last night- HOW FUN! I was in marching band 30 years ago, and all the sights and sounds were so fun, I didn't even feel my pain except a little on the metal bench (wishing I had brought a stadium seat with me). I was so proud of Liliana, a freshman playing flute, and Shannon, a freshman cheerleader- cheering in the stands for the varsity team. I have been invited to go to the freshman games so I can see Shannon cheer and keep coming to the varsity games to see Liliana march the halftimes. Sigh- no more stuck at home alone---AWESOME!

I am so open and smiley, as I walked up the aisle of the bleachers looking for my friends to sit with, 2 different people patted the bleacher and said you can sit here with us...! WHAT! This NEVER happens to me- I guess I am just radiating all these open, positive vibes and I was so so so grateful to them - one was a cute guy - what hope I got from that!

On top of all that, I was wearing my cool jeans, the ones I just got into after years of not fitting in any jeans, so I felt good and "normal."

So I awoke sobered, not manic, not depressed, just....and I did some housework awaiting the sunrise (can you even believe I am up this early?) so I could put on my tennis shoes and walk the trails after a good rain last night. The dust was all settled and the trails were better than ever- tons of birds and dragonflies and part of me feels like I am in the best good dream.

Have the best day and know there is hope for fun and love in a new day,

Marian